While I was meant to be doing stuff for uni last night, I had a sudden thought that maybe I should go and do a music degree. So I started looking up the requirements needed to get into the Con*. And then I thought, what am I doing, this is crazy. The feasibility of a career in music is like, zero. I gave up on the uni work and went to bed, kinda wishing I had done music for my HSC, and that I could maybe go back to when I was in highschool and do everything all over again.
And then I started to feel really, really old. That maybe it was too late**. That I've gotten to this stage in life and achieved nothing.
I couldn't sleep. 3:30am, still tossing and turning. What's going to happen to me? What am I going to do with myself...for the next 70 years***?
Everything seems so much worse late at night when you're tired and have stuff due the next day...
Waaaaah.....****
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*from where I am at the moment....hard, very hard.
** yes, it was late at night as well, but that's not what I meant.
***Besides being heavily dependant on pharmaceuticals for the latter half
****I wonder if one of the effects of being stressed is that you start putting footnotes into your thoughts.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Two hectic weekends
Well last weekend was the first ever EU Pharmacy Weekend Away, which was pretty cool, and then last night we had the RICE Rally....haha, it was INSANE I tell you! Well, at least it felt that way to me, especially the beginning, and the end. I was so tired today, even though I didn't really do all that much last night. I'll write more about it when I'm not meant to be doing work....
"The World You Love" - Jimmy Eat World
I've got a story it's almost finished
Now all I need is someone to tell it too
Maybe that's you
Our time is borrowed and spent too freely
Every minute I have needs to be made up,
But how?
I'm looking for a nice way to say "I'm out",
I want out...
I fall asleep with my friends around me
Only place I know I feel safe
I'm gonna call this home
The open road is still miles away
Hey nothing serious
We still have our fun
Oh we had it once
Windows open and close
That's just how it goes
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we love forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
I'm in love with the ordinary
I need a simple space, and rest my head
And everything gets clear
I'm a little ashamed for asking
But just a little helps
It gets me straight again
Helps me get over it, over it
It might seem like a dream
But it's real to me
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
You should see the canals are freezing
You should see me high, you should just be here
Be with me here
It doesn't seem there's hope for me, I let you down
But I won't give in now not for any amount
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else thinks
Now don't that feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
I like this song because I could never tell if it was meant to be happy or sad...
"The World You Love" - Jimmy Eat World
I've got a story it's almost finished
Now all I need is someone to tell it too
Maybe that's you
Our time is borrowed and spent too freely
Every minute I have needs to be made up,
But how?
I'm looking for a nice way to say "I'm out",
I want out...
I fall asleep with my friends around me
Only place I know I feel safe
I'm gonna call this home
The open road is still miles away
Hey nothing serious
We still have our fun
Oh we had it once
Windows open and close
That's just how it goes
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we love forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
I'm in love with the ordinary
I need a simple space, and rest my head
And everything gets clear
I'm a little ashamed for asking
But just a little helps
It gets me straight again
Helps me get over it, over it
It might seem like a dream
But it's real to me
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
You should see the canals are freezing
You should see me high, you should just be here
Be with me here
It doesn't seem there's hope for me, I let you down
But I won't give in now not for any amount
Don't it feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else thinks
Now don't that feel like sunshine after all?
The world we loved forever gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
I like this song because I could never tell if it was meant to be happy or sad...
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Bludging again
Sigh..Go me.
Ok, time for a vague teenage ramble. Wait, I'm not a teenager anymore. Damn.
Well yesterday Pun, Cat, Alicia and I had a picnic lunch in Hyde Park to....um....was it a comiseration of sorts? Or a celebration? Couldn't really tell. Either way, we were all bludgers on a Monday. Anyways, it was a nice sunny day, and we had Vegemite and cheese on bread rolls with brekky juice and white wine and Tim Tams and White Rabbit asian lollies and sour cream and chives Soho rice crackers and chocolate and probably some other food I can't remember but Pun can (I've never worked out how she manages to recall everything, food-wise.)
And, um, we talked about....some stuff....and then Leach had to go back to uni for eQuip, and Pun, Cat and I took photos with the soon-to-be-chopped-down fig(?) trees in the park.
Then we went to HMV in Pitt St because Cat wanted to listen to a CD. They're having a sale...I ended up buying Miles Davis' Kind of Blue (I figured since I'm doing jazz piano classes now I should be listening to some jazz....don't ask me why I'm learning to play in a style I didn't really listen to before) for $9.99 and Linkin Park's Hybrid Theory for the ridiculous low price of $6.72 (ridiculous not because it's low, but because of the 72 cents). They sound a lot like Rage Against the Machine in some parts. My favourite song on it is In The End...awesome song that one. And I'm still trying to work out what I think of Kind of Blue....listening to it at the moment...it's meant to be, like, really famous or something.
After HMV, what did we do....oh yeah, we went to Strandbags so I could buy a new backpack, because my old one is falling apart. So I bought a new backpack. And then Pun bought a curling iron. I wonder if you can cook with a curling iron. Or iron with a curling iron. Or kill insects. Hmmm.
Then....oh yeah, then we parted our separate ways and I headed to the Con for jazz piano for two hours....and then I went home.
On the train on the way home, I pulled out my new $6.72 Linkin Park CD and read the lyrics in the insert. I thought they were pretty good lyrics. Then at around Ashfield, this Asian guy, around my age, wearing a bandana, comes up to the seat behind me and asks me what kind of bands I listen to, because he saw me with the Linkin Park CD before. Random. But before I could say anything, his phone rang and he had to excuse (man, I almost spelt that with an 's' before the c) himself, and he was still talking when I got off at Strathfield. So I didn't get the chance to talk to some random stranger about what sort of music I listen to.
So that was my Monday.
And I think my brain is slowly disintegrating into mush. Must be this part-time uni thing. I had a couple of people ask me today if I was alright. I think I must have looked a bit out of it or something. I felt out of it. But I am getting enough sleep these days. But yeah, uni is a bit of a drag. I'm not always "all there" during classes. I wonder if I'll pass this semester. Maybe it doesn't matter? Nah, it probably does matter.
Today, there was a brief hail storm, and I didn't bring my umbrella, or my camera, with me to uni today. I didn't get wet though. It had stopped raining by the time I went home. Would have been good to get a pic of the crunchy white pea-sized balls in patches all over the ground, though.
Ok, time for a vague teenage ramble. Wait, I'm not a teenager anymore. Damn.
Well yesterday Pun, Cat, Alicia and I had a picnic lunch in Hyde Park to....um....was it a comiseration of sorts? Or a celebration? Couldn't really tell. Either way, we were all bludgers on a Monday. Anyways, it was a nice sunny day, and we had Vegemite and cheese on bread rolls with brekky juice and white wine and Tim Tams and White Rabbit asian lollies and sour cream and chives Soho rice crackers and chocolate and probably some other food I can't remember but Pun can (I've never worked out how she manages to recall everything, food-wise.)
And, um, we talked about....some stuff....and then Leach had to go back to uni for eQuip, and Pun, Cat and I took photos with the soon-to-be-chopped-down fig(?) trees in the park.
Then we went to HMV in Pitt St because Cat wanted to listen to a CD. They're having a sale...I ended up buying Miles Davis' Kind of Blue (I figured since I'm doing jazz piano classes now I should be listening to some jazz....don't ask me why I'm learning to play in a style I didn't really listen to before) for $9.99 and Linkin Park's Hybrid Theory for the ridiculous low price of $6.72 (ridiculous not because it's low, but because of the 72 cents). They sound a lot like Rage Against the Machine in some parts. My favourite song on it is In The End...awesome song that one. And I'm still trying to work out what I think of Kind of Blue....listening to it at the moment...it's meant to be, like, really famous or something.
After HMV, what did we do....oh yeah, we went to Strandbags so I could buy a new backpack, because my old one is falling apart. So I bought a new backpack. And then Pun bought a curling iron. I wonder if you can cook with a curling iron. Or iron with a curling iron. Or kill insects. Hmmm.
Then....oh yeah, then we parted our separate ways and I headed to the Con for jazz piano for two hours....and then I went home.
On the train on the way home, I pulled out my new $6.72 Linkin Park CD and read the lyrics in the insert. I thought they were pretty good lyrics. Then at around Ashfield, this Asian guy, around my age, wearing a bandana, comes up to the seat behind me and asks me what kind of bands I listen to, because he saw me with the Linkin Park CD before. Random. But before I could say anything, his phone rang and he had to excuse (man, I almost spelt that with an 's' before the c) himself, and he was still talking when I got off at Strathfield. So I didn't get the chance to talk to some random stranger about what sort of music I listen to.
So that was my Monday.
And I think my brain is slowly disintegrating into mush. Must be this part-time uni thing. I had a couple of people ask me today if I was alright. I think I must have looked a bit out of it or something. I felt out of it. But I am getting enough sleep these days. But yeah, uni is a bit of a drag. I'm not always "all there" during classes. I wonder if I'll pass this semester. Maybe it doesn't matter? Nah, it probably does matter.
Today, there was a brief hail storm, and I didn't bring my umbrella, or my camera, with me to uni today. I didn't get wet though. It had stopped raining by the time I went home. Would have been good to get a pic of the crunchy white pea-sized balls in patches all over the ground, though.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Thursday, August 03, 2006
What does *professionalism* mean to YOU?
Yay! A waffle assignment!
After pretending to be law students in one of last semester's subjects, now we get to pretend we're doing commerce in 'Pharmacy Management'...The assignments for this subject include writing a "personal statement on professionalism", a career plan, a book review on a management book, and a business plan. Fun fun.
So I'm meant to write 1000 words outlining my "personal views, opinions and beliefs about professionalism in pharmacy and what it means to you" by next Wednesday....amazing, when was the last time I had to write 1000 words for uni? But the course coordinator goes, it's all very flexible, you can do it any way you want, you can interview someone, or write a poem, or paint a picture....Paint a picture?!?!
So I thought I'd do a random web survey to get the creative juices flowing...What does professionalism mean to you? Any comments appreciated. Doesn't have to be related to pharmacy or anything. And don't say "nothing"!
To give you an idea of where they're coming from, a definition we got given was
And has anyone read any of the following books? I'd like to do the book review on the first one, but it's also the longest....
1. Seven Habits Of Highly Effective People - Stephen R. Covey
2. The E-Myth Revisited - Michael E. Gerber
3. The One Minute Manager - Kenneth Blanchard
Bwahahaha, writing a book review in Pharmacy, teehee....I'm so glad I dropped honours.
After pretending to be law students in one of last semester's subjects, now we get to pretend we're doing commerce in 'Pharmacy Management'...The assignments for this subject include writing a "personal statement on professionalism", a career plan, a book review on a management book, and a business plan. Fun fun.
So I'm meant to write 1000 words outlining my "personal views, opinions and beliefs about professionalism in pharmacy and what it means to you" by next Wednesday....amazing, when was the last time I had to write 1000 words for uni? But the course coordinator goes, it's all very flexible, you can do it any way you want, you can interview someone, or write a poem, or paint a picture....Paint a picture?!?!
So I thought I'd do a random web survey to get the creative juices flowing...What does professionalism mean to you? Any comments appreciated. Doesn't have to be related to pharmacy or anything. And don't say "nothing"!
To give you an idea of where they're coming from, a definition we got given was
"A profession is a group of people who provide a significantly recognised service that is central to human values. The service provided by professionals must be adapted to individual needs and require knowledge, training and skills that the typical user does not possess."
And has anyone read any of the following books? I'd like to do the book review on the first one, but it's also the longest....
1. Seven Habits Of Highly Effective People - Stephen R. Covey
2. The E-Myth Revisited - Michael E. Gerber
3. The One Minute Manager - Kenneth Blanchard
Bwahahaha, writing a book review in Pharmacy, teehee....I'm so glad I dropped honours.
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