Overwhelmed

AAAAAAAAAaaaaeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!



Edit at 9:45PM

OK, feeling slightly calmer now after my third cup of tea for the day, and listening to "On Fire", "This is your life" and "Beautiful Letdown" from Switchfoot CD on repeat....three of the slightly 'calmer' tracks....sigh, I love this album, I have listened to it soooooo many times since I saw them in March, and I'm still not sick of it. I really like the bass lines in "This is your life" and "Beautiful Letdown"...makes me want to learn how to play bass, hehe. Actually, I really really want to learn how to play guitar properly, but of course that requires practise, and motivation, and time...and it's like, meh, I'm going to be stuck playing variations of A, E, G, D and C with one strumming pattern forever and for the rest of eternity :P

Playing music is kinda all about spaces....spaces between notes on the keyboard, spaces between your fingers, spaces of time between one note and the next...I guess with a different instrument you have to learn a new set of spaces. Or am I oversimplifying things?

Well as usual, the reason for my overwhelmed-ness is leaving everything to the last minute. And the worst part is leaving preparing a Bible study to the last minute. How many times have I been told that that is a BIG no-no....actually, it's worse than that.

So my Bible reading has been going not-so-well for the past couple of months (read: understatement), and for our pharmacy small group we take turns leading each other. So I volunteered to lead next week's study (which is now tomorrow), thinking yeah, that's a good idea, it'll force me to read my Bible during the week. And do you think that worked? Nooooo. So here I am on Sunday night with half a Bible study AND a half-finished report which is due tomorrow. Oh the shame.....Am I the world's dumbest Christian or what? Or maybe just the most incompetent. And what the heck am I doing blogging? Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I think the tea-and-Switchfoot-induced calmness is now wearing off.

*SIGH*

Why am I like this?